Nowhere

No past . No future. Feeling sublime. I may not be the man I thought I was. My inspiration has left me in limbo.

It used to be just you and me,  we used to live together laughing. But that was then my dear old friend. It used to be so naturlly. Thirty years have come and gone. I would do it all over till eternity. Just to be your friend and hold your hand.Walking down the trails of StoneOak land!

It didn't used to be this way.

When the world was divided we stuck w/ family.  The closer we come to world unity, it seems we gain more paranoid. The free love we were taught was a lie? Too many people sharing too much information. How can that be bad. If we are all taught the same values? Nope, see it doesn't work that way. Evolution has it's flaws for mankind . Mankind still has two bad point's , greed and lust. Both emotionally invalid. To me a sign of weakness.Greed we all understand. To profit off your brothers? May be what the world expects. I say no, equal exchange is acceptable. When some-one profits over another some-one loses. This causes traffic jams!
I understand the idea of I got a good deal.

 Lust we will get into at another time.

Hugs Phill

Family Reunion

Getting ready for Family Reunion - after the trip to Sam's Club.

The view from my window this morning, while waking up with my coffee.

We all traveled down that same old road. Never looking back, just trying to be free! Hit some obstacles along the way. Most ran home and told tales of the way. Some endured and died on the way! What of the rest?

Some made a mark of triumph. Others just felt cheated for that path, and live the same.
To start anew and change the old - you must 1st change from within. Placement matters none!

Turkeys on the grill

I am a full pledged victim of my reality. Set free in your world, to be who I want to be! Issues arise and fall. The same old conflicts again and again. Insanity is the key? Perfect examples everyday
are set before me. On the roads in the stores. People more perfect than I, need to be served 1st.


We move on back to the old ways with no land called our own!
Too many people? Time will tell.

The Furture as seen eons ago

The perfect specimen shall show no aggression , yet show no fear.
These are the people I strive for in my life.

For they will be the ones, to carry on the goal!

I look at some people and see a beautiful soul. The ignorance of their upbringing is not their fault! They simply live what they have known. We must all broaden our acceptances.

Only through acceptance shall we gain the ablilty to share and learn more of our selves!

It's not me that writes these words. It's a voice from deep within, reminding me of dreams gone by. Memories of what should have been, too busy living the perception of what others deem. To start anew would be insane. I would never survive it the second time through!

I share these thoughts with you my friend, for I have known too many souls removed. Meaning to share their love, but never took the time.

Pattie and my son James rebuilt mailbox

Bag of dreams.

Yesterdays dreams never came through , I guess I'll put em in the bag I call fantasies.
Tomorrow is too late, the only time is now . That's why I keep that little bag of fantasies.

I bring it out from time to time. Just to see the difference.

Sometimes I share the dream with friends. Sometimes with people I don't even know, that look like they need my old dream.

It's just my collection of hopes and dreams, that I do love to share! When I have the time I will accomplish them all. Death himself has given me his word to fulfill these, with nothing in return.

So they say the dream never dies so they say
So they say the dream never dies so they say
so they say so they say so they say?

Forgive me ?

Sunday's walk through the yard.

Return to the Mirror

Is it time to go back to mirror and really see?

That person you haven't known for years? There's no turning back and starting all over. It was in the brochure, it was in the contract! Read the fine print, avoid the lawsuits. Grow a soul!

We all change in time. Following our best intentions for family. Somewhere we lost focus, never really sold our souls. Simply forgot our main goals.

The rest is history, no-one really cares. They will repeat what we did and teach the same. At least we got this far!

Freedom of Thought

I feel the need for comfort in a loved ones arms. It's us against this thing we call life. We all struggle from time to time. But alas at the end of day, I feel accomplished with you in my life

You are my reason for being here, yes you are to blame. Your love made me this way. You may never see it, but you were worth the cost of knowing you! I merely traded my soul for you.

The profit I earned from knowing you was well worth it. You let me flourish and just be me! You showed me the way to help others set themselves free

I will die with you as my friend!

Something has been taken from me, that can never be returned. My youth, my innocence, my faith in fellow man! I thought we were beyond this point, but alas some will never understand.
It wasn't worth anything to anyone-one else, should have just let it be. The gift of knowledge brings forth so many things unrealized, such as greed and manipulation and worse.
So for now i retreat back into my metabolic depression. For you see the spring will come come and bring forth new life to teach as we see.
It is as it has always been. Rise and fall.Birth and death. They are one in the same, happening repeatedly and at times simultaneously.
oh it does help to tap your foot to keep the time.yes it does, once the time is lost you fall back into reality. The times have changed your still unaware. The way its now and has been forever will never change. Time can not stand still.

We're just the same.

Promises take to damn long to be answered. Promises can be handed out like pocket change.
In our short time together, we have always been on the receiving end!

We barely even notice now or even know when it all began. Our dreams have changed without our consent. We have grown in separate ways.

This new person inside you excites me and scares me just the same.

No clue where were going but I love you just the same. I will allow myself to be lost for your cause.
Day after day and time after time where else could I possible be .

I do hope you realize it's all about you. Just the same!